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Jesus fucking christ, why have you not fucking called me?! I just want an excuse to get out of this fucking house and away from everything!

FFFFFFUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK    YYYYYYYYOOOOOOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!  AND YOUR LITTLE DOG TOO

Why am I so pissed at you?  Well I must just have a big HOMOSEXUAL crush on you! (taken from Mean Girls)

I have no fucking money and Eragon (teh movie) was so fucking gay what a fucking waste.  GOD! I just want to fucking kill meself with a fucking Icicle

On top of all this, I have not found one decent book to read.

I do believe the holiday stress has gotten to me.  Ignore me.  Please.

I'm going to go watch House and it will make me feel better.

And I swear to fucking god if my brother does not stop reading this I will fucking kill him.

Damn it! Why am I so fucking angry?!?!?! It must be my time of month.

A gay emo boy is staring at me as I type this.  I have turned around twice to see him looking at me.  I think he's gay cuz he's reading this book that has a picture of the photagrapher from "Rent" on the front.  I'm pretty much creeped out by this, but he has glasses like Jason so I'm becoming increasingly amused.

The hot Filipino librarian has quit and Melinda has informed me that she has an ugly boyfriend.  I want one...a hot Filipino Librarian that is.

My stepdad's dad died...so I gues I should say that my stepgrandfather died.  I don't know how to act or how to feel, sooner or later I'm going to run into my stepdad, our house isnt that big.

I've found some movies that will make me laugh.

I have also found 2 out of 4 books I should read over break.  I bought one at Borders for $15 (I should say that my mom bought it).  The other I got from the Library, it looks to be as old as an Egyptian Mummy.  I fear that if I try to open it the pages will turn to dust.  Scholars face such dangers everyday.

Jason was supposed to call me today, but he has most likely forgotten.

I love Melinda.  She's the best Librarian ever.

I havn't posted in a long time, mostly cuz there isnt anything to post about....

but if there is, I 'll be sure to say something.

yeah, my penis is 2 inches long...

I want the DVD and soundtrack for The Rules of Attraction. What a great movie. 

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Classes have started...yay.

my aunt is moving back into town thats pretty awesome.

I learned how to play "M Country Tis of Thee" on the piano....one verse.

I bought Jason a present for his birthday....almost 2 weeks late. I wanted to give it to him today but I didnt see him which ticks me off.

I am not eating healthy.

My classes are getting hard.....prolly cuz I watch too much cartoons.

Now I'm sad again. I want my book back from Jason.

YAY! Laura had her little get together, not a lot of people showed up but it was frigin awesome anyway....due to the large amount of soccer that was played. I was really awesome. final score:

7 and a half to 5 and a quarter

Dominic came up with the part goals, they mad a lot of sense though....Dominic did this neat trick with mentos and diet coke....frigin awesome! but everybody stole my money.... :'(

Melinda! I am really really sorry about not returning the movies on time! I promise to pay you back! just dont hurt me!!! Hey I'll pay you back at the next movie party! Thats incentive! Have a party and I'll give you money! Its a win win situation...

I need to go back to arby's and return my uniform and get my last check.



I saw Jason at Kmart. He just looks the way he always does...which is confusing.

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hmmm yeah I'm sad again. I think its because I read The Perks of Being a Wallflower. It was a really depressing book but what made it scary was that I kinda understood some of the stuff the kid was talking about. It prolly sounds stupid but I'm jealous of that Kids life cause it turned out alright in the end. I hope that happens to me.

My dad took me to some expwnsive restraunt called J. Alexanders but I wasnt hungry but I ordered a $15 burger anyway. Well I dont remember how much it cost but it was around that. The menu didnt have prices which I thought was wierd.

My grandma is moving to Lawrenceburg, Indiana. The house is sooo cool but I've only seen pictures and they belong to some community thing where they can use a pool and tennis courts.

I'm really depressed right now. I was just talking to Jason and I told him a great story of my day but he only talked about my last sentence. It seems like he only read the last part of my story. I know I sound like some stupid whiny teenage girl freaking about her "crush"...maybe I am....but I think I only really want someone to talk to that will listen to me.

Hmmm I basically just told Jason about being sad he didnt read my whole story. He then said something about each sentence that I wrote. That made me smile but only for a little bit. Now I'm sad again for no reason. I feel like I'm going to cry. I'm getting that tightening feeling in my chest and it kinda hurts like always. 

I think I'm going to go to bed now...well I actually cant cuz I'm at my grandmas and theres no room for me to hide in. Maybe I'll go outside. 

I havnt replied to any of Jasons recent IMs...I'm too sad to. I'm also afraid that I'll say something I'll regret. But I should say something so I dont hurt his feelings though...